crushed.

It hurts so much, but what can I do but just to wait for my turn at happiness.
Trying so hard to forge out a smile, but with every smile I throw out, a part of me wilt away into nothingness.

I just wanna start over, a new life, without this thought in mind. A clean fresh start is what I need to have some hope in life again.

Darkened **

Sometimes hope shouldn't be given if there even if there is. It's just like a dream, a illusion created to put our mind at peace.
Why lie to yourself? Reality isn't something to be taken lightly.

Hope would not heal any wounds, only open them up to to the harsh reality we have to face. How I wish I had a heart of steel and a mind of ignorance.